Friday, September 28, 2012

I'm Back! Here and There

     I haven't been blogging lately because I have been busy moving and also dealing with health issues in the middle of all this moving business.  Needless to say, it's been difficult.  I don't know how many times a week I'll be blogging for awhile, but when I have the time and health I will.

     Now, with that said, difficult times and changes in life can wear on a person.  We get tired and weary.  Angry and frustrated.  We tend to lose focus on the bigger picture.  Change and difficulties happen to all of us.  We don't like change at times and we never like difficulties, but they are ever present.  The biggest problems I have are, "What will happen next?" and "How will God work it all out for good.  The move was great, let me say, but the process is painstaking and time consuming, nevertheless, stressful.  Thank goodness it was just down the street.  Living with my mom for four years now, then moving from a house to an apartment is very interesting, considering my mom has collected over fifty years of stuff.  I also have way too many clothes and shoes and the stuff in the my bathroom has two bagfuls of stuff, and I didn't think I had that much!  With each move I've made in my life I've had to let go of stuff.  My mom is learning she has to let go as well and it has been tough. All change is like that.  There are things we have to let go of.  

     That now, brings me to health issues.  I have what's called Chiari Malformation and Syringomyelia, which means that my brain stem has been pushed down into my spinal column and has cause holes in my spinal cord.  There are things I had to let go of when it began to affect me fourteen years ago.  Today while riding in the car with my mom, we drove by the bowling alley.  Bowling was one of my favorite things but can no longer do it.  I was also reminded in my devotions about how I use to play volleyball and no longer can do that either.  About the only exercise I can get is to walk.  I use to walk about two miles about three or four times a week, but have had some difficulty in that even, lately.  BUT, I CAN walk, and that is amazing considering my first neurosurgeon I had was very surprised that I could and that was fourteen  years ago.  It was hard to let go of the things that I use to do and it's still hard to deal with the fact that I have limits.  Lately I've learned that no matter what we go through in life, God takes care of us and He provides ways for us that are unbelievable to most people, and everyday is good, in spite of circumstances.

     We must endure to the end and do it gracefully, not kicking and screaming, which I have done.  I have kept thinking of Philippians 4:13 all week.  "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."  That keeps me going lately.  I want to take "I can't" out of my vocabulary and replace it with, "I can...through Christ."  We can not do it all, I have found out, but we can do all things through Jesus Christ.  Life will bring pain and strife and there will be changes.  It's how we look at life that makes the difference.  It's also trusting in God that He will supply all you need.

    God bless to you all!  Have a great weekend!


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